Today has been scorching. I remember not sleeping well for the last few days, heat everywhere, the skin around my clavicles burning in an abyss of vehemence.

I managed to drop by the hospital again yesterday for about an hour and a half. I finished up looking at the records feeling like my limbs have gone into cloudless wind in extreme height, which did not subside even when I have gone inside Mom's car, drinking water with cold sweats on my temple. I felt like I lost air. I felt like a part of my head went shapeless. 

As much as I have been trying to rest a lot, maybe this is loneliness. Maybe this is, finally, my limit. 

I would like to rest and be rested.